AnonymousInactiveMarch 15, 2019 at 3:50 amPost count: 842
‘exaggerated pride and self-confidence’ re hubristic
I get the reference now gypsy lol! doh!AnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:01 pmPost count: 842
Rowan didn’t insult stoney cuz she didn’t wanna look up hubristic (but you bet she’s gonna do it now!)AnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:01 pmPost count: 842
lol me tooooo i love stoney on chocolateAnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:01 pmPost count: 842
Stoney, luv the candy mountain sig that’s a funny clip I saw it a while back.
Glad ur feeling so good today – you deserve it!!!AnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:01 pmPost count: 842
Ur not lazy – ur recovering. Give your sleep cycles time to even out.
If at all possible, though, go to bed same time every night and get up at the same time (NOT 2 pm mind you lol) – avoid the catnaps – things will even out.
Glad ur planning ahead re the 14 day mark – smart to share it with your sponsor and to have a plan. It’s just another day, though, don’t tell urself different.
hugsAnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:01 pmPost count: 842
((((((((((((((stone)))))))))))))))))) mega hugs! 🙂 🙂 🙂AnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:01 pmPost count: 842
When you hear yourself saying ‘things are quite normal really, going to AA seems a bit weird maybe I can do it by myself’ GET MAD and kill those thoughts! By now, you have heard that alcohol is cunning, baffling, powerful and PATIENT. Alcoholism is a disease that tells you that you don’t have one.
You were right to ponder what you’ve gone through, especially since February – and make no mistake, if you pick up, you’ll be right back there (and worse).
We love you Stone. Hang on to those guys who have taken you under their wing – keep going to meetings, and if nothing else, SHARE with them how you are feeling.
Very very proud of you for doing this.
Rowan xoxooAnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:01 pmPost count: 3062
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Find Part 2 here:AnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:02 pmPost count: 3062
I think recognizing the ‘addict voice’ is a huge step forward. Once you know what it is, you can deal with it. You will understand that it’s seducing you and lying to you and you can move forward.
I hope this is your bottom and I hope that you find the support you need to stay sober.AnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:02 pmPost count: 2537
Please qit drinking ASAP
Call your sponsor
Go to a meeting
and know you are not alone
face to face recovery is best just now.
(+) (+) (+) Hugs and Payers
BTW….I was in AA 4 years before
I finally quit drinking. I do understand.AnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:02 pmPost count: 2537
Mega Hugs Stone
My bottom was mental.
I remember the anquish and depression
By 3 months of AA recovery
my mind cleared and I was no longer in pain.
The fog lifted gradually…..began at 10 days of meetings.
Please give yourself time to heal.
Don’t compicate AA….just go.
Prayers continueAnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:02 pmPost count: 257
Hang in there stone. Always gonna be good days and bad, especially at the beginning. You’ve got a good attitude though. Take care.AnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:02 pmPost count: 257
Well, I had a councilors appt. yesterday and lately I have’nt felt very good after them. So I wasn’t in a very good frame of mind. I made myself go, made it to the parking lot, had an anxiety attack, similar to what I used to have cold calling in sales, and turned around and went home. On the positive side, even though I was thinking about just skipping the meeting and going to the city to score some pot, it didnt’ do that. I also didn’t drink. I went home, and rode my bike about five miles, posted here and went to bed early. Sounds like we had kinda similar days!! Take care.AnonymousInactiveMarch 24, 2019 at 9:02 pmPost count: 257
Hey Stone, I’m coming up on 30 days clean from pot, but only a couple from alcohol. I’ve finally admitted that I really do have a problem with alcohol. I’m a binge drinker. I don’t drink much if I’m smoking, but since I quit that 1-2 times a week have become 3-4 times. Half a bottle of whiskey (and I know that’s a lot) has become a whole bottle. I’ve never been able to wrap my arms around the 12-steps, but I’ve decided that perhaps it’s because I never REALLY tried. An article Morning Glory posted in the Secular Connetions forum really spoke to me. I nodded my head through the whole thing until I got to the last paragraph
“The fellowship, interpersonal and social learning, and the spiritual and cognitive resources of 12 Step and other recovery programs can be of enormous assistance in helping the recovering addict to learn such new coping strategies. A kind of Catch-22 frequently develops here, however: many addicts are so impaired in their capacity to take care of themselves and manage their moods in a healthy fashion that even participating in an interpersonal recovery program may initially be beyond their resources. Thus it is often quite a challenge and stress for them merely to begin regular attendance at helpful support meetings – and many people who might benefit substantially from such meetings simply avoid them, offering as excuses for doing so a variety of familiar and predictable rationalizations. The characteristic addictive response is along the lines of “I’d rather do it by myself,” an attitude that itself signals what is usually a longstanding difficulty in recognizing the need for help and in being able to request and accept it when it is in the best interest of the individual to do so.”
I didn’t like that one. But it really was true, just like the rest. So last night I decided to go to an AA meeting. Unfortunately, nobody else did!!! In the past I would have copped a resentment and used it as a excuse to drink or smoke, but I just shrugged it off, went home, got on Addiction to Rehabilitation and hung out for awhile. I’ll try again Wednesday. Anyway, I hope you are hanging in there. Take care.
BTW, here’s the link for the whole article.AnonymousInactiveMay 29, 2019 at 8:30 amPost count: 57
Just 2 days sober and already my sick brain is trying to tell me -‘things are quite normal really, going to AA seems a bit weird maybe I can do it by myself’.
It is only 4 days ago I was virtually screaming in pain from my stomach and was going numb down my left arm, couldnt eat or sleep, could barely drink water. Crawling to the toilet for one reason or another. The mental anguish I cant even begin to describe-just sheer hell.
A few days before that I was stood in hospital pulling an IV out of my hand and pouring blood all over the place as I discharged myself from the hospital.
Before all that I was out of mind on vodka on a two week bender, hating it, having blackouts and passing out, in the end I felt as crazy as and as full of self hate as I ever have in my life.
Since february this binge quit cycle has been getting worse and worse and if it carries on it will kill me or send me permanently crazy, and completely alienate the people I love. I will be alone and heading downwards unable to cope.
Somewhere in there I called AA and have been to one meeting and am going to another tonight and I find the idea of it very alien to me and a bit scary too. Maybe my ‘bottom’ isnt as low as some peoples but I want this to be my ‘bottom’. God, I hope it is.
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