I had a tremendous anxiety attack this morning and it hasn’t quite left me.
This morning I felt like I had been hit with a ton of bricks and felt a tremendous amount of guilt and as of I ‘did something wrong’.
Many times my feelings have turned out to be true and I have always considered myself to be very intuitive.
I have had many gut feelings from times I have been cheated on (and ‘knew’ when it was happening), to smaller things like having a ‘funny feeling’ upon leaving the grocery store and then finding out that yes, something did go wrong and it turned out I dropped some money on the floor as I was paying, etc.
When I have explained these things to friends that are in recovery and those that aren’t including some recovery professionals and I get a few basic responses:
The most common is is that I’m ‘paranoid’, or I that I’m ‘just having an anxiety attack’, that it’s all just post acute withdrawals and these types of feelings will go away with sobriety, or that it’s part of PTSD-
all just pointing to that it’s basically all in my head.
But what if these things are real and turn out to be true most of the time?
It’s rare that I’m ever given credit for being intuitive, as others are quick to blame it on something else that makes me seem ‘defective’ in some manner.
Does anyone else have this experience?