This is my first post in this site. I’m not a religious person but I’m craving to find some meaning in my life. I feel I’m going trough the motions day in day out but don’t get anything out of it…and I’m afraid I’m not contributing much. I have a lot of friends and as you might know drinking is a sport in the gay community…I spend hours with my friends getting hammered, talking and laughing, then we go to the bars and I do/say things that I regret once I’m sober. I don’t process alcohol well, so my hangovers last for days…I might have a drinking problem but my real issue is that being with my friends is the only thing that gives meaning to my life (my family lives thousands of miles away) and the only time I get to spend with them is when we go out to eat/drink. I have a partner and we share the same friends so it makes it even easier to hang out. I want to find some meaning and purpose in this life, I’m lost and tired. I want to be healthy, mentally ans emotionally. Where do I start?