I am new to this and actually posted this last night in the NA step 1 forum. I recieved suggestions that this might be a better forum with people that can relate to my situation at this time. So here it goes again….
I don’t really know how to start except to say that I am addicted to oxycodone. 7 months ago I was prescribed oxycodone 10 mg 4 times a day, for multiple (4) herniated cervical disc, among other neck problems. By month 2 I was taking more than the prescribed amount, sometimes to relieve my pain and sometimes just to feel good and keep going. I had surgery 10 days ago and I am just ready to get off this med. I have gone through the roller coaster of withdrawal and the excitement of the date it was time to pick up my pills. I have done things that I am ashamed of to feed this addiction, like manipulate people to help me get or give me pills when I ran out. I left my job because I had easy access to narcotics I just couldn’t trust myself not to steal drugs from my employer. It just happened that my neck problem is such, I was able to leave my job for medical reasons. I need help. I am going to my doctor who prescribed this medication to me so that I can come clean about my problem and ask him for his guidance and help.
By the way I now average about 60-70 mg per day.
I am currently prescribed by my neurosurgeon 5 mg 4 times a day. Just picked up this script yesterday, what a shock to the system, I told myself I would try to take only 4 today, I took 7, I am so frustrated and ashamed.