AnonymousJune 22, 2010 at 5:06 amPost count: 7
FLOWERS…I am grateful to see you reaching out—this is so proof prayers work. Do what the oldtimers say–“IF YOUR A$$ FALLS OFF DON’T DRINK–PICK UP YOUR A$$ AND TAKE IT TO A MEETING–GO ONLY IF YOU ARE TAKING YOUR BOOTY TO A MEETING, IT IS SURE TO GET YOU IN THERE–ITS YOUR A$$…”
I am no oldtimer, just a have-sometime-timer (4 yrs)–I was witness to something that would normally send people over the edge–in recovery, a very violent crime–I have learned nothing is worth drinking or using over, I would just be calling the tiger up from its sleep, and using it as an excuse.
And since you have had 15 years before I am sure you have heared this, and it applies to me as well….”IF I CAN GET THIS RECOVERY THING JUST 24 HOURS AT A TIME–ANYONE CAN…just have to want it BAD enough.”
Prayers and Blessing LoneFIREWalkingHorseAnonymousJune 22, 2010 at 5:33 amPost count: 70
Felicia, what improves will depend on what work you do to improve your insides. Are you doing any work to get better? No one says that life is all what we want every day. That is not any different after you cease consumption of your drug of choice.
If you really like something and you give it up, wouldn’t you expect to think about it longingly for some time? Of course. So it is with recovery. This is a big reason why you have to be working a recovery program. If you plan to stay sober and happy, you better have a plan. If you have one, you can’t get better if you don’t follow the plan.
Yes, I thought about drinking and consuming cocaine after I stopped. I have ten years sobriety and it got better over the years. Life was full of challenges, but relapse was never an option to those challenges. It is easy to relapse and tell everyone you did. The bravery is in NOT relapsing in the face of challenges. Yes, you will yearn for your drug of choice, but that goes away. But don’t just sit there and feel sorry for yourself, or you will be telling everyone you went back out to do more research for those of us who are still sober. All challenges are opportunities for something positive for you, if you treat them that way. Even craving your drug of choice. Do not waste this opportunity.
:sinkAnonymousJune 28, 2010 at 10:05 amPost count: 1
I’m 44, female, and in recovery for 19 years. I just found this site and really like it.
I just wanted to share that indeed it did get easier for me with practice. Recovery has become, over time, as strong a habit as using was. For those who are battling fresh on the front lines, my sponsor used to tell me when I had the thoughts/urges to delay it by any means possible. Since procrastination was a skill I had already mastered….lol….I understood that advice. The urges passed if I just put them off long enough. Then I became more interested in life, and in living, and the insanity faded to background noise.
Good luck….and keep sharing!AnonymousJune 28, 2010 at 5:14 pmPost count: 13
The pain of sobriety is not nearly as bad as the pain and suffering I feel when I binge drink. I did it again this weekend and feel horrible right now.
I called my sponser and will meet him at an AA meeting tonight.AnonymousJune 28, 2010 at 8:09 pmPost count: 3
Yeah, I guess you are right. I have had a massive relapse – just coming out of it. The pain and suffering is bad, but I wish I could honestly say that in 3 month time!
Wish you all the best – as fellow sufferer.
FelicaAnonymousJune 28, 2010 at 8:56 pmPost count: 13
Thanks Felica. Looking forward to tonight’s meeting.AnonymousJune 29, 2010 at 2:31 amPost count: 2438
Hugs Ladies!! I hope you will join us at the ladies meeting on Thursday’s if your able to attend! Stay strong.AnonymousJuly 4, 2010 at 4:11 amPost count: 1
hey i have 2 years and one month .it gets worse before it gets better but yes the first year was so hard for me. i couldnt stand it when my friends would go out and have fun drinking but be responsible. i was pissed off because i couldnt control myself when i was partying.i still have a problem being around people that talk about it but usually i go to a meeting to let out my frustrations but sometimes i dont feel it go away instantly because over time youll get used to hanging out with yourself cause right now its crusial for you to stay closeto recoverying addicts and alcoholics cause they will help you through it like go hang out with people at a bowling alley or skating with recovering people. its still hard for me to go to clubs just to dance with addicts and im at the two year mark so dont rush things and take things one day at a time love
abbyAnonymousApril 12, 2017 at 10:09 pmPost count: 5
Im in my 3rd year and im miserable. I have a job, car, sponsor. If I use I will lose my car, my license, all my money. I just keep faking it til I make it because sober hurts right now but drunk and high is probably a death sentence.AnonymousApril 12, 2017 at 10:18 pmPost count: 6
Marcusk87 congratulations on 3 yrs, and welcome to Addiction to Rehabilitation. What hurts?AnonymousApril 12, 2017 at 10:22 pmPost count: 5
Idk, i just wanna scream and break something. I feel no joy.AnonymousApril 12, 2017 at 10:26 pmPost count: 5
I dont even know if im an alcoholic. I cant manage my life sober either. ITs like bad if im sober but suicide if I drink. No win. Just a lesser of 2 evils.AnonymousApril 12, 2017 at 10:27 pmPost count: 6
Have you talked with your sponsor? Mine would tell me to find the next right thing.AnonymousApril 12, 2017 at 10:32 pmPost count: 10
I would say bad is the lesser compared to suicide.
Give us some background, 3 years is an awesome acomplishment, what needs to be fixed? And drinking/using obviously isn’t an option.AnonymousApril 13, 2017 at 3:07 amPost count: 5
Im full of ****. you say “talk to your sponsor” I dont want to. Hes just a sponsor in name, I dont tell him the truth about anything. I hate my life, I still have no happiness in life. Its a perpetual “keep coming” Im tired of being “sober” when im lying about my life. I just never really tell anybody the truth. If I went into a meeting and told the truth it would be anger. Im going to meetings my dad used to go to, he had 10 years and went out the time I came in, hes in mexico right now and his house is apperantly being repossessed (even though he never finished the house). I am 24. I dont give a crap anymore. I fake smile all the time and im so angry. I saw my dad once in the meeting and he shared that he was suicidal at the end of his drinking and i havent seen him at a meeting. I am all alone and sad and miserable and I have a job. But its all bs. And when you respond to this post saying “just talk to somebody” I cant. Ive been speaking and sharing and smiling at meeting and Im full of it completely. Im suicidal. Id rather drink than die so thats what will happen. The truth is impossible for me to share. IDK. Thanks for reading. I dont vibe with all these happy people. Im miserable. Im just so screwed. And I dont know if im a alcoholic. I dont think I am, I think im the child of an alcoholic but I started going to meetings because I was gonna kill myself (jump off a bridge) I understand the part of the first step that says “unmanagability” but not powerless. If my family was ok, if my dad didnt leave my mom for somebody in AA (the meeting I go to) if my mom wasnt a weed smoker, I might not of had so many tragedys in my youth and id be able to handle situations. I go to meetings because if I dont im all alone but im not getting anything out of it and im resentful at people who do. I dont know.
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